So I’ m not feeling very well right now [as in not every happy]. I feel like bad karma’s come to me, but I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve this. Well, I’ve done a few horrible things, but I know I shouldn’t be getting this much bs. I kinda feel sorry for that loser, I can’t help it, but I don’t think he deserves the pain and agony anymore. At the same time, I think he shouldn’t be trusted, nor hated, but someone to ignore. I also feel inadequate for some reason and I shouldn’t care if someone’s better than me at something; no one’s perfect. I fucking hate this feeling of inadequance and feeling like I won’t amount to anything. I need to take initiative once and for all, and I need to stop slacking off.
On a much ligter note, it’s almost the weekend! Although I still have a lot of shit on my ‘big list of things to do.’ I really have nothing to look forward to this month, but I certainly do hope things do turn around for me.
For my IB music class, I have to go to one concert or ricital and do a report on it. I’m thinking of either going to a piano recital or a jpop concert; just not something typical like a ‘post hxc’ concert because that wouldn’t be a very ‘good’ thing to do my report on and becuase I appreciate piano music more than that type of stuff anyway. If you guys know of any upcoming ‘interesting’ and ‘out-of-the-ordinary’ concerts, let me know.
Fuck I need a haircut! I hope Precious can give me one soon!! I just don’t know when, but she says anytime; I hope it doesn’t turn all scened-out like her other ‘customers.’ I need a check-up becuase my eyes’ve gotten a lot worse! I can’t see anything at school and it’s affecting my learning (yeah I’m really worried about not being able to learn, so what?!).
I think I need to cheer up. I feel like bad karma only comes to people who ‘think’ they have it; it doesn’t really exists, it’s only a figment of the imagination sort of.
